Feeling moody, guess i've let feelings take control of me once more. Woke up real early this morning scolded him and only to realise i wasn't in the best of mood and it's my fault so i apologised in the afternoons. Guess i didn't sleep well last night, kept tossing and turning. I'm having this kinda missing feeling. Playlist of repeated songs kept playing, mind is giving me fuck. Reminiscing our past till now, how far and how much we grew closer from me disliking him to now how things are. There are just too many moments. I cried, laughed, smiled, feeling of happiness, saddness and anger. Seeking helps from girlfriends are just epic moments. "I think too much." Haha. You are showing positive signs but can i really take them ? I'm afraid, i really am for my feelings are uncontrollable.
I am feeling ? Bitter-sweet & sour, irritably uncontrollable ..
OKAY SOMEONE GIVE ME ONE SLAP PLEASE !!!
6:05 PM
Caught She's Out Of My League last night. It was a fucking awesome movie !!! It was a impromtu meeting with him. Ate at a coffeeshop nearby with him and slacked till 1.45am. After movie finally found Dbl O. Hahaa so near yet so far. And why is it that i can lie to anyone else but not him ?! Hmmm .. And i learnt a side of him that i never knew, was rather taken aback. He even sung out loud ? LOL. Happiness, that's all i can say. :)
6:17 PM
He said he miss me !! OMG literally !!!!! Caught The Karate Kid with him last night. The movie was cool and nice. He waited for me after my work, felt so guilty but he said, "No sorry need .. waiting is fine." Awwww. Ate Ben & Jerry ice-cream with him again :) And he wore the bracelet i gave him as his birthday gift !! Oh man it felt soo good, soooo nice. Much Love, xxxxx !!
10:55 PM
Prince Of Persia and Killers with him last Thursday ! Finally gave him his birthday present and i'm really glad he likes it. A piece of my mind indeed. Mel is finally back !!!! Had a blast last night or maybe this morning ! Absolutely enjoyed the company, it was back to the good ol' days. I wish days like these will last forever. Feelings and emotions were rather uncontrollable. I will learn .. to be stronger and happy ! I love all of you :)
5:47 PM