Thursday, July 24, 2008
Let's re-write the end
Start over again
And it's gon go better now
Cause when I'm looking in your eyes
Feels like the first time
Give me one good reason why
We can't just press rewind
I don't wanna spend my life
Thinking what it could've been like
If we had another try (one time)
Like back in the day
That look on your face
Feels like, the first timeHAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM !! I LOVE YOU !!
5:32 PM
Sunday, July 20, 2008
HOPE IT'S ALL WELL TMR !Wishing myself the best of luck. Hahaa. I WANT, I NEED A NEW START .
Well more to come .. (if i have the mood) Haha !
11:13 PM
Saturday, July 05, 2008
REGRETS .
I've not been feeling good ever since .., i've never felt so regretful, bitter and sour. This is the first major regret I felt in my 19 years of life. What i've understood from this painful experience is to really do what you like and to feel what's right, don't stop yourself and there you'll find the true happiness in life and for yourself. The feeling I feel now is as if i'm lying, lying that i'm happier and it's a better deal whatsoever, it's all but a facade. But in fact it's the exact opposite i'm looking for my own suicide There are so many "i've never thought" questions. I regret but it's too late. I'm dumb enough to not think through carefully many many times, why that impulse grace and now you're regretting, well you've yourself to blame. Mum once said, now that i've decided to be out of there I shouldn't be thinking of it anymore. Moving on ? All I can say is, it's easy in words but not in feelings. I've not been myself and guess mum knows a little seeing my listless mood, often pms-ings and smaller eyes. Been listening to emotional songs which doesn't help but at least it blends with my mood and relates my feeling. I can whine, i can cry, i can drown myself but it's all too late, ain't it ? Regrets, regrets, I hope it'll be my last regret. I should find a solution rather than regretting now and to stuck in my own thinkings. But my thoughts are constantly repeating itselves, i've loss all motivations, all I think of is him, the past, the workplace, the colleagues, and such all. I'll get better in time and random the lyric for India Arie's song "Heart of The Matter" is so freaking nice ! Anyway thanks to Mel & Cherie for being there for me and for both of your advices and encouragements. WE NEED TO CHILL-LAX soon. Haha !
All the people in your life who've come and gone
They let you down, you know they hurt your pride
Better put it all behind you; cause life goes on
You keep carrin' that anger, it'll eat you up insideI'm gonna smile because i deserve to
8:13 PM
Wednesday, July 02, 2008
010708 (Tuesday)
Korean bbq cum steamboat with 15 of them at Excelsior Hotel. How i miss them, felt a minor difference that i'm like not on the same channel as them anymore. Took cab home with Lee Gek aka grandbuddy or god-sister, felt like it was another annual D&D, well she reminded me lah. Anyways, grace is freaking frickle-minded and completely loss the sense of motivation. IT SUCKS !
7:09 PM