Wednesday, October 22, 2008
Haven't been updating this rusty blog already !! Haha. Hmm .. Erm .. Well .. What should i blog about ?! Last Saturday went out after 11pm to meet Sam Lim, Gracia, Richard for a chit-chat session at Cineleisure. On Sunday went to chang(sing) K with Sam Lim, Gracia and Shermin. Sung till like 4am, and thanks to that my throat's been giving me a hard time. Been having a bad cough. =( Okay about my job, it's rather thrilling multi-tasking and yeah JTB students are in-house ! Meaning japanese students are here, hahaa. Appec is here as well, a really huge meeting convention here. Yeah more revenue and requests ! Lol. Anyway, i realised i know alot of people that i don't even know i know them ?! Haha is this good or bad ? Such a strange weird thing. But saying a "Hi" and smile won't kill. Lol. Okay as for matters of the heart, it's such an irritating thing and i'm already killing people about that. Until now, i'm still not clear on what i want. On a happy note i've got a distraction. Is this good or bad ? Haha see ain't this bugging you now. Yes, like i said, it's irritating ! Anyway don't understand, too bad cause it's rather complex, even so i don't get it myself. In short, Don't. Bother. Knowing. 1st Nov, Lee Gek's celebration ! That's all for today ! =)
8:42 PM
Friday, October 03, 2008
3 words : I Don't Know .
I don't know, i've been thinking, telling someone that i've had enough, don't want to go on lying to myself. Forcing myself to accept the fact that there's someone else in the life of yours and that i'm just a younger sister to you, that simple. This is so i can just be my real self and lead my normal happy life and wait when it's time. Told someone about another guy and all, well self-deception. It's just only one that's in my mind right now. Not exaggerating but of late, i've been having dreams of you, unrealistic dreams. How can i make you go away ? I've been forcing myself to think that you already have someone and i'm not good enough and that we totally have no fate to meet, this is so i erase you out of my mind, but seemed it went worse. Saw you, i avoided, answered your call, i pretended to be like before teasing you. But the after effect of all made it worse, when i saw you inside me went soft, there a dashing guy in suit and gosh your hair and cologne, somewhat familiar. And your voice, somewhat familiar, from an english convo went to chinese and the way you sound irritated when i disturbed you. Someone said, "But you didn't talk to him, did you ? Talk to him about it." Easier said than done. "I'll not."
Well i just feel like i can't hold in any longer. So i decided to blog it all down. Self-deception contradictions.
1:21 AM