Saturday, January 26, 2008
What would you do if there's a million and one thing in your head ?
How and what would you answer if someone asked if you're okay ?
Basically i've been rather down and everyday i'm just putting on a fake front, trying hard to take and go but like Richard said, it's natural for people to take advantage of their status and there's only this miniority of people that you can really trust and rely on. Work politics ? There's so much more to it and this is only a minor sector of what's in my head. I feel that i could no longer take it but i've gotta hang on. But thank goodness for Darren & Richard whom we are on the same shift practically every week and day. One funny man and one reasonable twosome is good enough to make my day and also to share problems with. Darren the dorky dude never fails to try hard making me smile. Anyway so Alicia left ytd and when she gave me a hug, i just can't help but breakdown, and so i've made a white lie to her, crying that she left was part of a reason, but not entirely. But i do miss her, so like today while waiting for the train, i was messaging her and she reminded me of the times she tried making me happy although she was really lame and for she was the first person to open me up. I can't help but tear. We knew barely 3 months but ..
"Everyone makes mistakes " - A somewhat familiar phrase and again here i am making unneccessary mistakes. It's really hard being Miss Perfectionist but shouldn't we strive to become one ? It would be perfect if everyone is perfect. I can't bring myself to forgive myself on the mistakes i've done. I have to declare that i'm not stable yet ! I'm NOT ! Sleepless nights, dark eye circles, panda eyes or whatever you call it is what i'm experiencing. Oh man when will it be all over ? Every small little details of unhappiness adds up to my mood and i'm not able to forget, it just keeps recalling in my mind, i'm really trying hard not to breakdown for Grace is strong ! Striving to be Miss Perfectionist and definitely have no mood for CNY or any other joyous occassions !
Okay folks let's just say this entry was written as i'm PMS-ing.
STRESS. WORRIES. EMOTIONAL ANXIETY.
10:09 PM
Monday, January 14, 2008
Here i am updating, hah yeah. So last week was a pretty smooth yet boring week and this week is gonna be shag, having like 4 late shifts, drat ! but thank goodness there's ppl like gracia, richard, darren, sam .. to talk to. Anyway after work ytd went to have late lunch cum dinner at Suntec's Toast box with Sam Lim and Alexander, it wasn't that awkward after all basically we crapped and laughed alot alot. It felt so good to be able to laugh all out after getting all the emotions running when you're busy working, as what i told Sam i'm not myself when i'm working and so is she. Uh huh it's just not ourselves. So took the train back with Alex, as said wasn't quite awkward, i actually entertained him by being silly, and anyway was just 2 stops so haha ya ..
And today was really shag ! Went to work at 6am which is .. i woke up at 4+ this morning ! Got dad to fetch instead of taking the crappy company taxi. Basically today wasn't base at Front Desk, helped out as 'Lobby Host' at the 4th floor Convention Centre to help the Stryker Group. Got easy pay today but shag lah and even had 1 hr extra OT, how cool. And not forgetting, i feel so old, i'm no longer a new staff, there's like 2 more new staffs and this week i'm going SOLO, no more buddy ! Stress stress and i still don't get my own code to log in to the system, still using buddy's, it feels like having a body without soul. Hah. Well i feel like a pig now, just got up 2 hrs ago and now i'm gonna sleep soon. Hah till then, Peace :D
10:44 PM
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
Alright goodbye to 2007 and hello to 2008 !
I'm really at a loss on where to begin with cause so so much had happened. Anyway in brief, had spent Christmas and New Year with the loves, camwhore like there's no tomorrow and it's hillarious hillarious ! Yeap and on both occassions, we went Clarke Quay to Boat Quay to Esplanade, such a nice feeling to be able to walk to places far and near with friends. Can you imgine the feeling of not feeling tired at all and being able to joke the night away not thinking of anything and having accompanied by close ones. Hahaa, alright as you can see i'm like so out of touch with blogspot.com so i'm like boring and .. ahh anyway work was kinda stressful when it was nearing Christmas and on New Year's Eve itself, just by looking at the queue is scary enough and with so many requests ! The entire lobby was hella noisy and lifts were like overloaded and operating so slowly. I've found out that the best way to escape from something, IS TO WORK !
Yar okay i really have no idea on what to blog !! Perhaps there's just too many things to be said and good memories are best kept in you heart rather than type it in words. HAHA, nonsense eh. Once again, Happy New Year To All ! :D
Hopfully it would be a year for the better !
And Here are some pictures for the Swiss High D&D
(There's still a 'report card' sorry didn't post it) :
5:30 PM