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Saturday, February 27, 2010

Yesterday, caught Dear John and Hot Summer Days with Cindy after work. Hung around till 11plus - 12 waited for him to end work. Finally got to eat tau huay after so many tries. We were totally exhausted from work. Caught late night Up In The Air that movie with him, it was a rather impromtu decision i never expect he would ask me to watch movie with him. (tell you more in person) I'm happy ! Yesterday or rather today (cause i came home at 10am) was totally hear-felting. I wonder will this be the last ? He said something that made me real happy and made me trust him. He really talked alot to me as in heart talks about himself, for the first time i feel the deepest thoughts and feelings from him but i feel helpless. Sigh. I think i'm gone .. Sorry i don't think i want to go on here. To the clique who is reading this, let's meet up soon alright ? :)

11:45 PM


Sunday, February 21, 2010

There's like so much going on in my head these days. Like there's a little war in my brain. Why am i even bothered by it when it shouldn't and maybe not even my business. What is trust ? What is committment ? What defines flirting/playing/having fun ? What are you thinking ? What secrets do you hold ? What do you want from me ? What will happen when i'm gone/leave ? What will the future be like ? What should i do ? What can i do ? "What are you doing ?" Hahaa your classic question for me. I pushed you away but why do you have to come back to me ?! You clearly know that i'm treating you very much differently now. Why keep playing/toying/flirting with me still. Why bother, why care for me ? Why bother telling me so much and trusting me ? Why remember my details which i can't remember myself ? Don't tell me infos about you, don't make use of me. Why are there so many whats, whys and questions that have no answers ? I thought you're gone it's only but a denial, why do i not have strong willpower for cases like this ?

Caught NINE, a line set me thinking, "You're just an appetite, you're greedy, you took everything away from me and now i'm left empty. Just .. Take It All ! " It's so darn right true. You left me bitter-sweet happy, sad, miserable, emotional memories and times. You take and never give, you don't care but you acted like you do, you made use and is not guilty about it. You don't lie but you cheat, you don't care if people doesn't trust you cause you didn't ask them to, you're an outright jerk who only knows how to sweet talk. You're a so full of youself playboy, you made empty promises. I want to give you hell. BUT why is it that I .. I still .. I'm so plain dumb . Have only myself to blame .

5:47 PM


Friday, February 12, 2010

FEBRUARY ALREADY !!! CHINESE NEW YEAR IS DAYS AWAY !!!!!
I'm tendering on the 26th, rather soon. Sigh. How and what should my feeling be ? On the day itself catching a movie with him :) Hopefully will work out if nothing's wrong, he agreed for now. 17th, 4th day of CNY gona cycle, bowl and watch movie with Pei Fen, Cindy, Hao Jie and perhaps Edwin. Paintball cancelled so sad cause of the guys lah but i can't wait !! Too bad he's not going it's my fault lah :( but sure it'll be fun without him as well !!! YEAH !! Anyways, HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR TO ALL CHINESE and HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY !!

12:29 AM